It was one of the first questions I wrestled with. I didn’t understand why I “wasted” my time praying against the threat of miscarriage if God was going to allow it anyways. In some ways, I still wonder.
Through my days of grieving, I talked things out with other Christian girlfriends, and they really helped me sort through my thoughts and come to a conclusion that was very humbling.
My heart was more focused on what I wanted God to do for me rather than on God’s goodness no matter what happened to me.
One of my sweet friends who had also recently gone through a miscarriage spoke some godly wisdom right into my heart. She reminded me that Jesus’ message wasn’t that we would get anything we want and be able to live comfortably here on earth just because we have faith. In fact, He tells us that we will most definitely face troubles but to have comfort for we have His peace, and we know these trials are just temporary since He has overcome this world (John 16:33). It was humbling, too, to refocus on the fact that God’s ways are not my own. They are much higher, and His reasons are more than I need to fathom (Isaiah 55:8-9).
These truths took a weight off of me. I didn’t have to figure out the “why” behind my miscarriage. I didn’t have to figure out God. I just could decide to trust in His promises and let Him comfort me through this emotional time.
So, why pray if you won’t get what you’re asking for? I guess the answer begins with giving yourself a heart check. Is God just a genie to you or is He your Heavenly Father who deep down you know has your best interests in mind no matter the tribulations you may face?
“And we know [with great confidence] that God [who is deeply concerned about us] causes all things to work together [as a plan] for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to His plan and purpose.” Romans 8:28 AMP
If you’ve gone through a miscarriage or a loss and need someone to talk to, please contact me and I’d be honored to listen and provide resources for further help.
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